What Happens When We Are Enough
It’s so good to sit down and write to you again. It feels like what I’m meant to do today.
I don’t know who else can relate to this, but behind these words is a woman who knows she has lots of powerful gifts and insights and healing to offer and who spends much of her time wading through the muck of insecurity, inadequacy, doubt, and not enough-ness.
Not enough has been a big one for me lately.
Which is actually kind of cool because I can feel that life reaaally wants me to learn how very enough I really am. And in a strange and beautiful way, by seeing how much not-enough-fear I carry, I get to engage with that fear, care for that fear, and allow that fear to start dissipating as I choose to believe in my enough-ness.
Have you ever wondered what would happen if you stopped trying to live up to the expectations you perceive around you, stopped trying to be good enough, and just started living as YOU?
Spoiler alert!
—>Your ego mind would quickly start freaking out. Because it cares about you and wants to keep you safe and if you stop caring about what other people think, oh, my goodness, you just might be ostracized from your tribe and then—certain death!!!
Our egos tend to be a bit dramatic.
Most of us don’t know what would actually happen because we’ve never fully tried.
But if you think about it, you have a lot of evidence for what will happen if you continue living life trying to be good enough for the expectations of those around you.
And I’ve decided, it’s not very pretty. And I don’t like ugly things. Or living an ugly life, just because I’m scared of being cast out of my tribe.
My ego keeps trying to stop me from stepping out of the old familiar boxes.
But here’s what I like to think would be the actual result of living from the belief that me being me is simply enough:
I’d Like Myself Better
I’m honestly so sick of living with the burnt out, lonely, never-enough version of myself. Living life trying to satisfy the demands of others leaves me empty, sad, and a constant failure. But when I see myself clearly, when I step into the truth of who I am, and when I allow me to simply be enough, it’s like adding BluRay technicolor to a black-and-white TV screen. The person I find is really beautiful. She’s the one I want to spend life with. When she’s around, life feels satisfying. And I want to keep living.
I’d Find My Tribe
I recently realized, my people won’t recognize me if I don’t start acting like me. They won’t be able to find me as long as I’m cowering in the corner trying to live up to the fortress of expectations life has fed me. But once I step out and step up and allow myself to be seen, they’ll find me, they’ll recognize me, and they’ll come join my party.
When we stop trying to fit in, that’s when we can finally start belonging.
Breathe. Relax. Have Fun. Joy.
How’s that shallow breathing, constant tension, hyper-responsible, can’t slow down until the pressure lets up life working out for you? It threw me straight into chronic fatigue and illness that I’m pleased to say no longer rule my life but continue to scare me at times. SO MUCH TENSION comes from trying to be good enough. Who are you trying to please? Who is the demanding authority figure waiting around the corner to condemn when you come up short once again? And what would happen if you could let that inner critic go and trust that you are safe to breathe, to relax, to have fun, and experience joy now? Doesn’t that sound like a better alternative to the rat race we’ve been taught to run?
I’d Make Millions of Dollars
LOL — there is so much abundance money-making rah rah high vibes information out there, which is great or frustrating depending on who you are.
BUT, I genuinely believe that the greatest abundance for each of us becomes available through stepping into greater awareness of who we are and what we are meant to be doing with the breathtaking power that lives within each of us.
So I’m actually not on Team “keep those thoughts perfect and make more money”, but rather on Team “tune in to what your body desires and trust that you are here to experience and make that remarkable thing happen”
I believe this, because I can genuinely feel that my spirit was made to live a life of delicious abundance, yet my ego is working overtime to keep me from the dangerously unfamiliar experience of actual financial security and abundance. I’ve never provided for a family of 5 before. My ego looks at that and says, great, so that’s where safety lies. Let’s keep not providing, k? And I’m coaxing him along as quick as I can to make space for the possibility that maybe the unfamiliar prosperity is a lot less dangerous that it looks. And by stepping into the full power of who Ruth is, that prosperity will have no choice but to come to mama. (And yes, my ego is a him. Not sure why. He just is.)
What would happen to you, if you stopped bowing to the expectations of others and started listening to your heart?
Can you hear the stirrings of your heart now? Where are they leading you?
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